Wow, can you believe it. It’s almost been a month since I last posted. I’m really ashamed of myself at the moment because I told myself I’d be more intense and verbal putting down my feelings and using my words so that I can still keep my intellectual alive inside myself. Well, I’m not ready to give up yet. Even without any readers at the moment I’ll still continue faithfully on.

The last couple of weeks have been hard financially, well…not hard, just bare-bones. Last month we were a bit free with our money and thus this month has been quite tight. But we’ve done pretty well but I can’t wait till russ’ payday tomorrow and mine on wednesday. I’m also looking forward to a 3 day weekend. I definitely deserve it since I haven’t had an off day since last tuesday and wednesday and that wasn’t enjoyable due to that nasty bug I caught those days. Not how I would like to have spent my days.

Russ’ back has been really hurting the last couple of days and he hasn’t been to work either. I really doubt he’ll be going tomorrow but I sure hope he does because I need him to pick up his check. ; ; We need the money.

I haven’t been to the gym since my sickness last week. I really need to step up and just make myself go at odd times. During peak season at work I always was 7am-4pm and would be out of the gym by 6ish. Now during these slow times I have all these mid-shifts till 630pm and I hate getting out of the gym so late. I was hoping it was a fluke and my schedule would go back to normal so I wouldn’t have to be out so late… but it is looking like it’s of no hope. I’m gonna have to suck it up. It’s not a bad sacrifice. I’m helping my body look the best it possibly can and making myself feel all too much better. I guess it’s just the anticipation of having a good home night with my beau. The odds are the earlier i get home, the more energy the beau has and the more likely we are to do something enjoyable.

It’s a slight chance but it’s payed off before and I’m all too happy to give in when he wishes to partake. But all too often we don’t do anything and my anticipation turns out for not. (and find myself wishing I’d went to the gym anyway)

Well, , my sickness is over and starting Monday I’m back full-force.

Also, I finally wrote a letter into Brent Corrigan’s site explaining how much I adore the boy. Hopefully it all works out for the best. I was so excited later to click on the Subscribe link to his site I have all-to-often clicked into nothingness to find the service working! I am SOOOO excited. Once Russ puts in his check you can bet i’m subscribing. Goodbye Paltalk, HELLO Brent Corrigan! The boy is just an intelligent, beautiful young man and I will support him all i can.